I find feelings very confusing. I don’t like being so susceptible to feelings of rejection and betrayal and abandonment. They’re probably mostly in my head. But, I guess that doesn’t make them any less real. When I commit to a relationship, I expect that the other person is making at least the same effort. I’m not the kind of person that has a bunch of “casual” friends. I choose the people I want to spend the most time with, invest in them and feel that they will do the same in return. So, when that doesn’t come back to me, I feel cheated. It’s happened to me within the last year or two. I have a hard time seeing the person in question and not feeling bitter and rejected. When I “grow up”, I hope I learn to handle this better.